turn into a new leaf

hmm, wel, kinda, i decided to change to better, i mean, i just wanna change myself to good, not the old, lame, troublemaker, heart breaker or whatsoever me.. sometimes the old is good, i miss the old me except the trouble maker thingy.. my old laugh, how i look like.. the childish me.. i think its time to change for better.. and maybe my family also thinks that im a bad ass. i knew it, i always broke my parents heart.. i wanna change for them and enough, im tired fighting with them, and i've done too much uncountable sins.. its time for me to seek forgiveness to everybody.. I KNOW i've cause heartache to peeps. but, we, people, human being of course done many mistakes.. even the people call themselves as "perfectionist" done mistake by saying that they are "perfectionist" just like my teacher at tt. yeah. but i dont really care bout that. hahaz. i just ask myself.. WHAT AM I? what type OF PEOPLE I AM? oh yeah.. i received a msg from anon(anonymous) just know in my hp. its from a boy =.=" with a private number, i cant see. that kept saying that im a bad ass girl that cause pains to every guys heart. n that he said that im a heart breaker. that he said that im fooling him. yes, i suspected its from my ex's.. then he wish me a selamat hari raya. so yeah, i didnt reply. n he didnt send anything again after that. to him:im sorry okay? xD yeah. actually, to that boy i wanna say. relationship during teenage life musnt be serious everybody knows that, n u r not the only man that i will marry n same goes with u too, im not the only girl. when i think carefully bout myself, i just wanna stay single until i got my own money, car, wealth, then i will find my tru love. mwahahah.. sounds funny. rather than i be a heart breaker, i decided to stay single until i graduated. :-D FUCK to people said that im a lesbo coz i dont have bf. so thats them, do i care again? nono.. i dont care, say whatever u want, its my LIFE. i control myself okay? hahaz. hmm.. i also wanna stop of being the stressful me and fuck the emo me. i will leave it behind. and mum and dad, about the hot-tempered me to you, i'm sorry k? im still in the process to control my anger, but let me tell ya, every single uman being's soul, although they r soft hearted n level headed. if something that caused them to get mad, they will get mad, its fact that humans DO get mad. but for me, i wanna control my anger towards getting angry to things thats less important. huahua. ok, i know some people did ask me when im serious with guys? i tell them, when the time has come and when God gives me my destiny, then insyaAllah..
cause miracles came from Allah. yeahh.. ceyyy~