let it be me

eitt~ im listening statue song by lil eddied~ woots~ nice lyrics+songs~ woots~ i got a lot of questions for only MYSELF. i ask myself, what i really am? do they really like me or love me?(not boyfriend okay i dun have 1) am i being too selfish? how cn i read people's mind? why people always misjudged me? do people get me? am i the one who bring happiness to others at first and then me, myself will OUT from it? fyzah n ameera.. ha..ha..ha.. be a good and nice friends.. yurp i know, i introduce the two of u, n yet, im out from your group.. btw, i dont really care bout that, just sayin. i just say what i feel and i can't lie to myself in my blog. i just write what i feel, these emotions came out from brain n make us think. everybody will remember n never forget. bitter things, sweet things, well, life must goes on.. maybe people cn be happy without me. well, im just hurghh(i donno how 2 describe myself babe) coz i suck a lot, it feels good when im mad with myself, somehow, when i know im wrong, i still deny and wont give up, well, thats bad about me, but hey, thats what i really am but when im mad at myself by telling that im a jerk, i feel released.. at least i got this blog to express about my feelings.. n i know one thing, people wont get you besides yourself, coz u r what u r and, its your heart, not everybody else's heart, so only U knows how u REALLY feels, of course people wont get u.. u mustnt blame people for your mistake n dont deny it, i learnt this moral from a movie, stop blaming people or saying bad things bout them coz thats make u feel yourself "PERFECT" i know sometimes i did say bad things bout people, but not my friends ok? haha.. i know im wrong sometimes or all the times but nobody is perfect right? yeahh~ k. m not insulting ok? i just say what i feels, as u wish, if u think that im an insulter well i cant say anything else again, coz its your choice n its your brain. i just say what i feels for myself. well, i know im not the most depressed girl in the whole worl, a lot more people are more stressed than me. but when i know im stress, i try to hear music n ignore the world, when i think carefully, its no use for me to release my anger to someone or what. coz it will hurt me more.. so, i decided to swallow the pain >GULP< like that.. hahaz.. coz i know when im stress or depress, thinking more bout things that makes me more anger, it will destroy myself n my future. who knows whats goin to happen right? i dont care people said bad things from my back, coz love me or hate me, im still on their mind.. yeah. why should i care? okay, im also not the type thats level headed. im a bad tempered sometime when somebody hurts my feelings. rather then i blamed peoples i should blame myself first, although people sees me as crazy minded girl, but deep in my heart, theres still loneliness in me, n deep scars that i decided not to show in front of peoples. yeah. why should i be sad? coz i always think, i am neither the luckiest nor the unluckiest. well u cn say that im a lazybones. hahaha.. im a lazy ass girl. AHAHA.. im very lazy. yerp, i know i have troubled many peoples >.< yeahh.. now i can wish for a PIECE IN THIS HOUSE coz bawang merah is gone.. yeaaa!!